
{"id":293713,"date":"2023-12-25T16:37:21","date_gmt":"2023-12-25T21:37:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/?p=293713"},"modified":"2023-12-25T16:37:21","modified_gmt":"2023-12-25T21:37:21","slug":"telling-christmas-stories","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/opinion\/columns\/telling-christmas-stories\/","title":{"rendered":"Telling Christmas stories"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">This year I had to dine alone. Just imagine. As usual. The family scattered across the map, failed loves, etc.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The friends who remain on this side of the sea have insisted that I go to their homes. The food that can be procured, I am told, no matter how modest it may be, will taste better in company. I have not written \u201cfriends\u201d lightly. It is a word that has a lot of weight for me. Friendship is the only religion I profess: that amalgam of tenderness, understanding, solidarity, complicity, political and aesthetic affinities, critical sense, generosity and mutual admiration that has been amassed over the years. Friendship is not built with dogmas but with the permanent confirmation of affection.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But I have declined.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My somber mood fits perfectly into the initial typology of the <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">pariguayo<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. The term comes from the Anglo expression of party watcher, dating back to the years of the American occupation of Santo Domingo (1916-1924), and referring to those who did not participate in the party, those who did not dance, those who were left to criticize. So I have excused myself to some by saying that I have already had an invitation from the others for weeks; and vice versa.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Instead, I have decided to summon a group of women writer friends to my imaginary table. As is usual in these cases, we will make jokes, we will toast with an optimism that we are far from feeling and we will end up telling each other stories of past Christmases. Above all sad stories, because, among us, Christmas is a celebration looking back to the past, when utopia seemed possible, and the discreet family dinner tasted great because we fully enjoyed the warmth of the people we loved, all within reach of a hug.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Eleven Cuban women writers will go hand in hand with eleven of our artists. Texts and images are not illustrated, they are accompanied by identical hierarchy, they are reflected like two mirrors facing each other. The testimonies were written expressly for <\/span><b>OnCuba<\/b><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">; I took the images \u2014 with the consent of the authors \u2014 from my archive, since I have dedicated a space to all of them in <\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/category\/opinion\/columnas\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><b>De otro costal<\/b><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">, my weekly column.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And here I leave you so that you can read, with my same enjoyment, this handful of memories.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">May you all have a happy Christmas, with deep and serene joy.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Diciembre sin ti (December Without You)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In my home, we don\u2019t believe in anything, but we celebrate everything; and a celebration that includes lights, food, a holiday, and a little reconciliation (although once the family dinner is over we become cats and dogs again) wins us over. We have never had Christmas trees, because it seems pointless to us to buy something very expensive and artificial to use for just one month each year, let alone cut down a tree for such purposes, even though we live on the Isla de Pinos. What we always do is place the colored light bulbs, which we recycle from December to December, in the mamey bush on the patio, under which we have dinner, with the sound of the crickets like Christmas carols.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">We don\u2019t go to mass, although there are roosters at our party [in Spanish it refers to misa de gallo, Christmas Eve midnight mass, thus the reference to roosters], who climb on the table to peck at the <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">congr\u00ed<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">, and we also celebrate the birthday of Jes\u00fas, the uncle who is already turning the corner 75 times, as he likes to say. We don\u2019t give each other anything because everything is very expensive, and having each other is the best gift, although my mother already announced that she would like a new washing machine because her old one is with making a \u201cvery strange taka taka\u201d noise. We didn\u2019t make any Christmas sweets because, for as long as I can remember, in my home one is made every Sunday, and with how bad things are and being a family of diabetics, maintaining more than one tradition that includes sugar is too much. If Christmas coincides with a Sunday, then we kill two traditions with one sweet.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Nor does it bother us that we don\u2019t have something special to cook that day. We dine whatever there is: a whole roasted pig or a skinny chicken, the kind that grew up in the yard eating anything, but together. The latter seems simple, but it is not. It only happens twice in 365 days, and one is Christmas. The rest of the time you eat when you are hungry, when you arrive, at whatever time you can, in the room, watching television, alternating a bite with a glance at your cell phone, or standing in front of the stove, eating from the pot and no matter the hour.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">At Christmas it is different. We put aside the screens, we begin to taste Rosa\u2019s delicacies almost at the same time, we hand each other the plates so that everyone can eat everything, we leave the last portion of something for someone who we know likes it a lot, and we squeeze each other\u2019s hands, and we hug, and we forgive each other, and we tell each other how much we love each other with the frankness and intensity of someone who knows that it will take another year to do it again, and that maybe we can\u2019t anymore.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But this Christmas there will be a dish missing from our table, like thousands in Cuban homes. We will miss my nephew\u2019s joy and his insatiable curiosity about the fat old man on the sleigh who gives the best toys to the children who have the most and the worst, and sometimes none, to those who have nothing; and we will have to break the promise of not looking at the cell phone while eating dinner because we are going to want to listen to him, between happy and tearful, tell us the stories of his journey to the country of the Christmas trees, and ask us about the friends he left here, for whom he is saving a sack of apples because this so-called \u201cSanticl\u00f3\u201d never brings them anything.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Yuliet P\u00e9rez Cala\u00f1a<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Granma, 1986. Journalist and narrator. She is the author of the book <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Una guagua es un pa\u00eds<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0(Ed. \u00c1ncoras, 2022) and co-author of the audiobook <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Lecturas colectivas del C\u00f3digo de las Familias<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. Her stories have been included in the anthologies <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">La orilla del alma\u00a0<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">and <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Objetos textuales no identificados: narrativas emergentes en los nuevos contextos digitales en Cuba<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. She lives on the Isle of Youth.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293717\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293717\" style=\"width: 1289px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/2-1.jpeg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293717\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/2-1.jpeg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1289\" height=\"860\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/2-1.jpeg 1289w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/2-1-300x200.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/2-1-1024x683.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/2-1-768x512.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/2-1-750x500.jpeg 750w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/2-1-1140x761.jpeg 1140w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1289px) 100vw, 1289px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293717\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Anyel Judith Goenaga (Havana, 2002). \u201cTexto#1.\u201d Manipulated digital photo.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>Mentira (Lie)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It was a Christmas without snow, lights, or gifts. A Caribbean Christmas, which met no other requirement than saying goodbye to a year and celebrating the triumph of something I never shared.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I was working as a receptionist at a haunted and photogenic lake in the Ci\u00e9naga de Zapata, where tips and inventing allowed me to live decently, although with a chronic fear of the police. I had to work on December 30th and 31st, and January 1st. It would be free on the 2nd when only the stories would remain of the celebrations.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I tried to get someone to cover my shift, but everyone had plans to celebrate as a family.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It was dawn on December 31 of some distant year when I prepared to talk to the manager and tell him that I had a sick family member at home. I cried, in a convincing Oscar-level performance. The manager, who was a long-time friend, was so moved that he decided to take me home in his car.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It was 6 p.m. when we arrived. Everyone was at the hospital with my daughter, who had suffered an asthma attack. I felt a strange presence and a feeling of guilt that lasted to this day. She, my daughter, doesn\u2019t know it. I ask her to forgive me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Ana Ivis C\u00e1ceres<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Sancti Sp\u00edritus, 1972. Poet. Her last published books, <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Los a\u00f1os del insomnia<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> and <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Almost 90 Days<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">, appeared in 2023 with the labels of the Dos Islas and Primigenios publishers, respectively. She lives in Miami, Florida.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293718\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293718\" style=\"width: 637px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/3-2-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293718\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/3-2-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"637\" height=\"881\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/3-2-1.jpg 637w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/3-2-1-217x300.jpg 217w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 637px) 100vw, 637px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293718\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Lianet Mart\u00ednez (Cienfuegos, 1993). \u201cRegalo,\u201d 2022. Acrylic, manufactured paper, industrial paper, roots, dried flowers and jute strips on canvas, 130 x 90 cm.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>A m\u00ed lo que me gusta es el mango (What I like is Mango)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">For my family, between distance and forgetfulness.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In my family, no one said Christmas, I never heard that word. No celebrations, commemorations, or festivities: the end-of-the-year party and that\u2019s it. It was the time when grandparents, uncles, cousins, second, third, and even ninth cousins, took advantage of the certainty of the pork roasted by my uncles Julio and Armando in the oven of the Uni\u00f3n de Reyes bakery (the one that Che had once visited and verified in situ that the best crackers in the province were \u201cmade\u201d there) and they dropped by my great-grandmother Marcela\u2019s house. The eating spree, the jugs of rice wine that my grandfather Merejo made, the boxes of beer in the fifty-five-gallon tanks, and the fritters made from yellow malanga and coconut sweets from my grandmother Alfonsina Dulce Mar\u00eda\u2026 It was glorious&#8230;<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I also don\u2019t remember talking about the Christmas tree. In my piano and singing teacher\u2019s house they did display a HUGE tree, full of half-painted light bulbs. But there it was logical that there would be a tree, with baby Jesus\u2019s crib among cotton, because my teacher\u2019s family was from the upper class, with cousins who sent her things from abroad. They surely commented among themselves that this was celebrating Christmas.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">That\u2019s why I was so happy when mommy gave me an apple on New Year\u2019s Eve of a year that I no longer remember. An apple, as if I were also from the upper class. Very red. Brought from \u201cover there.\u201d I felt (I feel) the weight of it in the palm of my left hand.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The first thing that mommy warned me was that I should not leave the room, that it was just that one and we were too many kids to share. As a good only daughter, that is, obedient and stingy, I was left alone with the fruit. God and I know how much my apple and I enjoyed it. I put a headband on my forehead, like a crown, and spoke to the mirror on the dresser. That I was Snow White and I was going to pretend to be asleep so that the prince would kiss me on the mouth and I could kiss him back. That was the fruit of rich people, that of Do\u00f1a Bella, that of the Brazilian soap opera (or was hers the passion fruit?).<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I don\u2019t know how long I acted in front of the mirror. But oh disappointment! When mommy returned, she would find me in tears. Just one bite was enough to make me not be interested in tasteless apples even today. What I like are mangoes. And that my family gets together again, for Christmas or New Year\u2019s Eve, the name doesn\u2019t matter. Anyway, I think that a guajira like me is not prepared to be from the upper class.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Maylan Alvarez<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Uni\u00f3n de Reyes, Matanzas, 1978. Writer, editor, journalist, literary promoter, wife and mother. She has published more than a dozen books of various genres. From the window of the place where she writes she can see the sea. She lives in Matanzas.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293720\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293720\" style=\"width: 1140px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/5-2-1140x1692-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293720\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/5-2-1140x1692-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1140\" height=\"1692\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/5-2-1140x1692-1.jpg 1140w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/5-2-1140x1692-1-202x300.jpg 202w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/5-2-1140x1692-1-690x1024.jpg 690w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/5-2-1140x1692-1-768x1140.jpg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/5-2-1140x1692-1-1035x1536.jpg 1035w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/5-2-1140x1692-1-750x1113.jpg 750w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1140px) 100vw, 1140px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293720\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Ailyn Mart\u00ednez (Havana, 1976). \u201cEl muro inquebrantable,\u201d 2023, Digital photo, 36 x 41 cm.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>Inventarse la alegr\u00eda (Inventing Joy)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When my maternal grandmother, daughter and granddaughter of landowners, was forced by her parents to choose between family or her boyfriend, a poor young man with \u201cno future,\u201d she, the most generous person I have ever met, chose the boyfriend and left her paternal home, taking very little with her: some clothes, family photos and a box with Christmas tree decorations.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Many years later, my brother and I, searching through the drawers of her wardrobe, discovered, ecstatic, shiny balls of multiple colors and curious clay figurines that represented animals, people, mountains, houses&#8230; For us, children who did not know what Christmas was, who had never entered a church, who had not even been baptized, they were just peculiar objects, a fiesta for our imagination and our senses. Christmas was on our island, in the distant 1970s, a foreign, forbidden word.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It wasn\u2019t until much later that I entered a church. It was the end of December 1994, a terrible year in which I was, as almost always then, disoriented and sad. I remember passing by that corner by chance, and I was attracted by the chants that came from inside that place. Then I entered and I liked the joy of the people, the smell of the flowers, that breath of mystery that seemed to take over every space, the saints who, from their altars, looked at me imploringly with their glassy eyes, as if waiting for the miracle from me. And I stayed. I felt protected by those people who had faith, a kind of joy in their hearts. Because in 1994, despite everything, the exodus of that year, the separation of families, the dead at sea, the bare tables, in my Cuba there was still joy, a certain glimmer of hope.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Many years have gone by since those distant years, and the Christmas decorations that grandmother kept as a treasure were fading in time, between dust and oblivion. I didn\u2019t know how to protect them. Now, as I write this chronicle, I think about everything that was denied to my grandmother, my mother, and me. I think that the three of us, in some or every possible way, had Christmas stolen from us. That may be why Decembers have a bittersweet taste for me, and they take me back to my childhood of winter and drizzle, to my grandmother and her untimely orphanhood, to those decorations that she kept, perhaps as the only certainty that her childhood had existed.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I also think of the Christmas tree that I never had, of the old people in my neighborhood who have been dying, and those I could not say goodbye to because life, so unpredictable, pushed me almost three years ago to this little island far away in the middle of the Atlantic, which is filled with giant trees, lights and garlands every December, where joy still exists and every end of the year is a festival of colors, of flickering light bulbs in every corner, of enthusiasm, those unknown things, new to me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I love seeing others happy and, I don\u2019t know, but I decided to put a Christmas tree in my house this year. I will choose a very green pine that reminds me of Cuba and its countryside, I will buy beautiful lights, decorations of all kinds, many colored balls, a star, a small nativity scene. It will be my tribute to my grandmother, to my mother, to myself. I will try, why not? to be happy under a foreign sky, far from almost everything I have loved. I will open my heart and silently thank God for that Christmas of 1994 that allowed me to know hope, for this other Christmas of 2023 when I am so equal and so different. In short, it is necessary to de-dramatize, learn to break cycles, and invent joy.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Yanira Marim\u00f3n Rodr\u00edguez<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Matanzas, Cuba, 1971. Poet and narrator. In the process of writing are her collection of poems<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Mientras espero el alma\u00a0<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">and her book of short stories<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> La muerte solo llega los domingos. She resides in Las Palmas, Grand Canary, Spain.<\/span><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293719\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293719\" style=\"width: 1200px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293719\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1200\" height=\"1200\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1.jpg 1200w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1-75x75.jpg 75w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1-350x350.jpg 350w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1-750x750.jpg 750w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/9-2-1-1140x1140.jpg 1140w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1200px) 100vw, 1200px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293719\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Ailen Maleta (Havana, 1984). \u201cAlma,\u201d 2019. From the series \u201c\u00c1nima.\u201d Digital photo. 60 x 90 cm, edition of 3; 40 x 60 cm, edition of 5.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>Jes\u00fas naci\u00f3 en Catia (Jesus Was Born in Catia)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A star of an unattainable tree, for Cuban children of the 1980s, Christmas was a beautiful and alien event. We saw it in the movies, it was the holiday that grandmothers and parents \u2015 who lived the last Christmas in 1959 \u2015 remembered with nostalgia. Christmas happened somewhere else, it happened abroad. In my case, furthermore, not to mention relating it to Christ. I found out the date of that birth on December 24, 1992, at the age of 12, when a friend and I entered the Carmen church in Havana (we had been doing this), decorated for the occasion. Surprised, I asked what was the reason for such pomp.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I had to go to Venezuela to be able to enjoy my first Christmas with \u201ceverything\u201d that it entails. In quotes, because what it celebrates has its origins in the precarious and because that everything, newcomers, was not yet within our reach. Then it was a spark in the air, a rush of lights. They were the trees and the nativity scenes, which looked more like a hill in Caracas than a manger in Bethlehem. It was the smell of <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">hayacas<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> and ham bread; the lit \u00c1vila cross, that December landscape that would later become invariable in my window.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">We passed through several houses before we could find a space that felt like ours, that pilgrimage typical of the first stage of emigration. I will not talk now about the betrayals and false promises that are also part of that first stage. On December 24, 1993, just over a month after our arrival, we finally settled in a small annex. Upstairs lived another Cuban family, also recently arrived. I spent my first Christmas Eve with them, at the home of some Venezuelan neighbors who were already their friends and who kindly welcomed us. There was food, there was dancing and there was music. In conclusion, there was community and communion. The end of a pilgrimage and the arrival of a (re)birth.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Now I live in the country of jingle bells and combined Christmas pajamas, in a city that brings together my community of origin, but Christmas for me will always be Venezuelan. I can\u2019t help it. Jesus was born in Catia.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Kelly Mart\u00ednez-Grandal<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Havana, 1980. Poet, essayist and narrator. She has published the collections of poems<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Medulla Oblongata\u00a0<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(CAAW Editores, Miami, 2017) and<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Zugunruhe <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(Katakana Editores, Miami, 2020) and the book of short stories<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Muerte con Campanas <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(Suburbano Editores, Miami, 2021). She lives in Miami.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293721\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293721\" style=\"width: 1140px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/1-2-1140x1565-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293721\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/1-2-1140x1565-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1140\" height=\"1565\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/1-2-1140x1565-1.jpg 1140w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/1-2-1140x1565-1-219x300.jpg 219w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/1-2-1140x1565-1-746x1024.jpg 746w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/1-2-1140x1565-1-768x1054.jpg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/1-2-1140x1565-1-1119x1536.jpg 1119w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/1-2-1140x1565-1-750x1030.jpg 750w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1140px) 100vw, 1140px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293721\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Aim\u00e9e Joaristi (Havana, 1957). \u201cAmigas,\u201d 2023. From the series \u201cRecept\u00e1culos.\u201d Mixed media on canvas, 60 x 90 cm.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>La Navidad me sabe a algo crudo (Christmas Tastes Raw to Me)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My father was born in 1937, and for some years he was responsible for setting up a small indigenous tree in my house with Huichol crafts: balls and bells made of woven straws, and hand-painted baked clay stars. No \u201ccribs,\u201d because my dad is an atheist.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">During his childhood, Christmas was a privilege for others, not for the son of a housewife widow of a communist.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My mom was born in 1957, and she remembers some Christmases. The grapes, the apples, the family reunited. It is one of the few clear memories of her childhood. A large, united and loving family around an occasion whose traces of religiosity were left out of the equation.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The children of a modest-marriage-in-Havana-recently-arrived-to-a-new-age-of-innocence liked grapes, apples and parties.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I was born in 1983, and I no longer remember grapes or apples. The only holiday was January 1st, and its meaning completely escaped the Christmas spirit. It was the anniversary of the triumph of the Revolution. I remember the slogans \u201c31 and more\u201d, \u201c32 and more\u201d\u2026and being hungry. Cabbage leaves with brown sugar in thankless years of Chinese bicycles and goose pasta. That Cerelac that I could never digest.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Someone once told me that if I held my nose and bit into a raw potato, it would taste like an apple. Since then, apples taste like raw potatoes to me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Christmas tastes to me like something raw, something that was not cooked with love in my sentimental upbringing. It was not cooked in any way. It\u2019s something I chew with my nose covered, so the raw potato feels like an apple.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My children were born in 2016 and 2019, respectively. The grapes and apples were first sold in CUC and then in MLC. The orphaned children of the promised social justice lack certain privileges in a society \u201cwith all and for the good of all.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Christmas lives in another place. It is not a daughter of my land. It is a torn piece of land, a wandering island of lotuses. Those who took Christmas away in my country already communicate directly with the God whose birth is commemorated on December 25&#8230;or they celebrate Christmas in other lands of the world.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Here, in Cuba, Jesus of Nazareth would have to be born again.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Liliam Ojeda<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Havana, 1983. Singer, actress and playwright. Currently she is rehearsing the play<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Robin, <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">by Reinaldo Montero, with the El Cuartel Company. She lives in Havana.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293722\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293722\" style=\"width: 966px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/6-2-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293722\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/6-2-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"966\" height=\"1149\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/6-2-1.jpg 966w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/6-2-1-252x300.jpg 252w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/6-2-1-861x1024.jpg 861w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/6-2-1-768x913.jpg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/6-2-1-750x892.jpg 750w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 966px) 100vw, 966px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293722\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Yainyt Alcazar (Matanzas, 1993). \u201cLas flores del mal,\u201d 2023. Manipulated digital photo.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>Postal (Postcard)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">During my childhood, Christmases were poor and discreet celebrations. Or none (I was born in 1962). In my experience, I associate one of these festivities with the anguishing crisis of conscience of my father, who, obeying the command of an imaginary being, prepared a bonfire in the backyard to burn missals, religious images and, symbolically, put an end to <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">old molds<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. He was so disturbed that he didn\u2019t care that my brother and I plundered his bag of good luck hazelnuts.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Becoming an obedient soldier of the <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Siberian Detective<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> (obsessed with that book by a Soviet author), he stopped venerating Saint John Bosco, Saint Jude Thaddeus, Jesus, Mary and the Holy Ghost, and never spoke again about the priests\u2019 school. With great difficulty, we rescued from the ashes some silver and calamine medals that resisted the fire.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">This time he would go after luck himself, tired of it not arriving by invoking it with wet and stale hazelnuts, nor with his long repertoire of prayers. That chapter closed the few Christmases we had had as a family, all without lights, without shine and without baby Jesus in the manger. Now, to make matters worse, there would be a lack of stories that would leave in us the inspiring mystery and joy of the good word. Christmas was, at that stage: silence, strangeness, meditation.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In 1979, when I was 18 years old, from the freedom of the student residence on 12 and Malec\u00f3n, in El Vedado, I rediscovered the dancing lights of Christmas that my father once promised us. Without causing me anxiety, the tree filled the memory of the absence: one of the few families that lived in that building maintained the splendor of the custom, despite the ideological rigidities of the times. The young guajiros who enjoyed the modernity of the 20 floors, used the trick of marking the floor number several times (I don\u2019t remember if it was 10) on the elevator blackboard, just to observe from afar the exotic setting that, in a pact of silence, opened generously to our eyes from the hall.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Over time, thanks to Luis Lorente and the Christian tradition of his family, I had the opportunity to know and share for twenty years the authentic Christmas that Monsignor Jaime Ortega honored with devotion, surrounded by very dear people, music, readings, stories, laughter, blessings: Nancy and Ram\u00f3n (and daughters), Lourdes (and daughters) and Amaury, Hortensita, Luc\u00eda and Padura, Luis, Mar\u00eda, the nuns of the Archbishopric, Monsignor Polcari and, on some occasions, Fathers Pepe F\u00e9lix and Yosvani Carvajal. Those encounters reformed some traces of my soul.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Today I keep that Christmas card like a shield. I represent it for myself in the form of a landscape mural, full of multiple nativities and witnesses. In some of its sides appear, my four grandparents, three brothers, parents, cousins, uncles, nephews, essential friends and their own families that have been (and still are) mine&#8230;. I include a scene where my father, now lucid, receives the absolution of Jaime Ortega, a man of faith to whom we owe so much.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Charo Guerra<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Limonar, Matanzas, 1962. Poet, narrator and editor. Her most recent collection of poems<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">, Limpieza de sangre, <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">will be presented during the Havana Book Fair in February 2024. She lives in Havana.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293723\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293723\" style=\"width: 1080px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/10-2-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293723\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/10-2-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1080\" height=\"725\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/10-2-1.jpg 1080w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/10-2-1-300x201.jpg 300w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/10-2-1-1024x687.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/10-2-1-768x516.jpg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/10-2-1-750x503.jpg 750w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1080px) 100vw, 1080px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293723\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Daylene Rodr\u00edguez (Matanzas, 1978). \u201cIsabella.\u201d From the series \u201cConfinamiento.\u201d Havana, 2020. Digital photo.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>Las despedidas (Farewells)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">December will always bring that taste of farewell to me. Maybe because Christmas is a sad date in which, since I was a child, I have seen the departure of a family that started out very large and that has now become that of two solitary sisters who eat whatever they can for dinner around a table where only my brother-in-law and some friends are preparing to celebrate a date that we must celebrate.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">First there were my cousins. Their mother took them away from us under the pretext that the government was going to take away from her and her husband their parental rights over their daughters. My father showed up at my grandparents\u2019 house dressed as a militiaman, which provoked the anger of the rest of the \u201cdisaffected\u201d people whom I would never see again. It must have been around the beginning of the 1960s.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Christmas was then a sacred date. My cousins played, as always, with us, while at dinner my father praised the beginning of a new era that in the 1990s would be a nightmare for him. It was also in December when he left us to go to Miami. He had been invited by his sister, the same one with whom he had difficult relations until then, to the point of suppressing all contact.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Christmas, for many years, was almost prohibited, and when it began to be celebrated again it seemed that everything was normal. I didn\u2019t know that in another of those Decembers, one of my sisters and, later, my nephew would also leave. And a little later my mother would die, leaving Elizabeth and me almost alone in the place that had long ago been everyone\u2019s home.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Christmas brings that taste of absences that does not allow me to enjoy the succulent dinner that the only sister I have left in Cuba prepares every December 24, and that becomes a scene of mourning, at least for me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Marilyn Bobes<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Havana, 1955. Journalist, poet and storyteller. She twice won the Casa de las Am\u00e9ricas award for the book of short stories<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Alguien tiene que llorar <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(1996) and the novel<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Fiebre de invierno <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(2005). Her most recent published book is<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> La aguja racional\u00a0<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(Ed. Union, 2016).<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293724\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293724\" style=\"width: 1366px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/8-2-1366x910-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293724\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/8-2-1366x910-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1366\" height=\"910\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/8-2-1366x910-1.jpg 1366w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/8-2-1366x910-1-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/8-2-1366x910-1-1024x682.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/8-2-1366x910-1-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/8-2-1366x910-1-750x500.jpg 750w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/8-2-1366x910-1-1140x759.jpg 1140w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1366px) 100vw, 1366px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293724\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Marianela Orozco (Sancti Sp\u00edritus, 1973). \u201cSobre la mesa,\u201d 2012. Digital printing.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>D\u00eda de la Liberaci\u00f3n y el Desorden Absoluto (Liberation Day and Absolute Disorder)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My dad\u2019s last Christmas was my son\u2019s first. Their faces are so similar that the photo of both looks like a montage. They could not eat pork or drink because of the illness of one and the age of the other. Their entertainment that day, surrounded by the Cuban Christmas hustle and bustle, was watching children\u2019s movies.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The room they were in sounded like a children\u2019s place. I heard them laughing every time I passed by. The baby tried to sing and my father would rewind the film to listen to the current song again. And again. I took on the task of guarding the door so that no one would interrupt them. When someone tried to go in, I asked them to leave them alone, and I did the right thing: the next day Juan went to the hospital and did not return home with his grandson. He left on January 1st on his way to the cemetery, increasing by one the overlapping and never-resolved mourning that my family carries.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">That\u2019s why we don\u2019t celebrate the end or the beginning of years. It is a date that passes in silence and total normality, like any other. We don\u2019t even turn on the TV set. We try to ignore it, to forget that it exists. Each person chooses the way to mourn, and ours is that, wrong perhaps, but ours. My son locks himself in his room to listen to music or goes to his father\u2019s family\u2019s house.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">We have changed the destiny of the days. We celebrate December 24 with music, movies, food and drunkenness. A Christmas that is the end of the year, new year, Liberation Day and Absolute Disorder. It is untouchably familiar: no one from our tiny clan can be absent and no one has the right to be in mourning or unhappy. It is like a catharsis, a rebirth or a forgetting, twin of the oblivion that we orchestrate on the last day of the last month.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A while ago, talking with my son, I confirmed what I had been suspecting: for that young man the year does not begin or end when it should, but on December 24.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I think it\u2019s time to teach him something different.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Yadira \u00c1lvarez Betancourt<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Havana, 1980. Narrator, teacher, blogger and mother. She is co-author of<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> La Guada\u00f1a Universal: el c\u00f3dice<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0(science fiction, in the process of publication) and<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Historias de Vitira <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(fantastic narratives, Gente Nueva, 2017). She lives in Havana.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293725\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293725\" style=\"width: 1080px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/4-2-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293725\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/4-2-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1080\" height=\"925\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/4-2-1.jpg 1080w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/4-2-1-300x257.jpg 300w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/4-2-1-1024x877.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/4-2-1-768x658.jpg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/4-2-1-750x642.jpg 750w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1080px) 100vw, 1080px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293725\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Roc\u00edo Garc\u00eda (Santa Clara, 1955). \u201cLa noche de los tulipanes I,\u201d 2021. From the series \u201cBellas flores del mal.\u201d Oil on canvas, 120 x 140 cm.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><b><i>El muro de los lamentos y una lluvia inesperada (The Wailing Wall and An Unexpected Shower)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">For the first fourteen years of my life, I enjoyed the long-awaited December holidays as only children can. They meant the arrival of the cousins, who came from Havana for that unique occasion, the strange little tree with thorny branches and oval leaves that my father went out to cut who knows where on the Pinar del R\u00edo coast, and that, once sprayed with silver paint and placed on a base, we filled with the surviving spheres of the lost family Christmas glory, some garlands of lights with water bulbs that were still bubbling by pure miracle, and a peeling plaster manger that we sank next to the trunk in tons of cotton.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But the wonder of that happy time were the delicacies that still arrived at the grocers as part of a one-of-a-kind holiday basket: Spanish nougat, preserved sweets, boxes made of little boards where guava paste was packed, cheese, apples, grapes for swallowing to the sound of twelve bells on December 31 and, above all, walnuts and hazelnuts!<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Yes, my Christmas smelled like empanadas stuffed with minced meat with raisins or guava paste, and it sounded \u2014 more than like Christmas carols \u2014 like the delicious noise made when the almost spherical nuts that were (and still are today) my longed-for December feast were broken. I loved the hazelnuts that arrived on time every December until the Grinch stole Christmas from us to inflate the dream of the largest harvest ever seen in history. And if the 10 million went (which they didn\u2019t) my beloved nuts were never more. 1970, a fatal year.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">On December 24, about four years later, my sisters and I were nostalgically recalling the glorious days of the roast leg, apples and coconut sweets from La Conchita, sitting on the floor next to the kitchen door, open to the long, narrow hallway that separated our house, a typical construction from the \u201clean\u201d times, from that of the neighbors. Between our conversation and what was heard by Nen\u00e9, the angel from the home next door, there was only a wall a couple of meters high. It was then that I said that my deepest loss was hazelnuts and that I would have given anything to have just one under the hammer again. What would not be our astonishment when out of the blue it began to rain hazelnuts on our heads, in a singing fountain that gushed just from the other side of the wall?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It is worth saying that that unexpected gift from Nen\u00e9 had been in a drawer for too long to be edible, but the intention is what counts. It is the most convincing proof I have to continue believing in the magic of Christmas.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Norma Quintana<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Pinar del R\u00edo, 1956. Poet. For more than two decades she has dedicated herself to literary research and university teaching. Her most recent collections of poems are<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> De p\u00f3lvora y jazmines <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(2014) and<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Memorias de mis d\u00edas <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(2018). She lives in Chetumal, Quintana Roo, Mexico.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Yo me quiero ir (I Want to Leave)<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I\u2019m on the next island about to break my canoe coming back. I can no longer think of anything other than abandoning Cuba and with Cuba everything I know to this day.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">There is a giant tree in the lobby of that hotel and it is full of garlands, stars, lights that twinkle for no reason. Nothing takes me to a more absurd, more impossible place than a Christmas tree. These will be the days when I will be the most Ta\u00edno goddess and disciplined daughter of the colony. Everything at once. I want to leave! I\u2019m also afraid of a trip without you. You, crying on the next island, in this strange place to experience 2005 and its Christmas.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I\u2019m on my way out. I need sea air.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Suddenly Santo Domingo seems more beautiful than Havana; but I won\u2019t be able to say it. Santo Domingo of borrowed lights. Colonized like me. Santo Domingo\/Christmas tree also wants to go. They\u2019ve been wanting to get away forever. We are two.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I jump up and my great aunt is placing her hands so I can climb to the neighbor\u2019s window and see their hidden tree. Everyone in the neighborhood knows that they set it up in December; but since it is prohibited, they close the doors and leave only one high window ajar. My aunt wants me to see the lighted-up tree, for me to surrender to its outlawed magic when I am only six years old, it is 1982, we will be cosmonauts in 2000; but I still want to leave, even if I don\u2019t know where.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">From the neighborhood tree to the hotel tree in Santo Domingo there is only one communicating vessel and that is my desire to rescue some people and take them somewhere else. Fill the canoe with my aunt, my grandmother, my woman. Three beings whose hearts I will later break with my departure.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Now, it\u2019s 2023 and I\u2019m already packing my bags to go back (suitcases of coffee\/aspirins\/soups\/adult diapers\/jellies\/custard\/soaps and syringes). I think I\u2019ll never know what happened there, on the first \u201creal Christmas.\u201d And between jumping to look into the neighbor\u2019s window and into the void on the island next door there are only a couple of fake garlands that my mother buys the first time they let us celebrate without the doors closed. It is 1997 and we have gotten a small tree made of wood and plastic that does not reach a meter in height. My great-aunt gets excited, the neighbor opens the doors and displays their giant tree in the middle of the living room. My girlfriend, who is not one at the time, orders me another fake tree<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">just in case. The Pope has given us his blessing. I want to leave.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It\u2019s 2005 or 1982 or 1997 or 2023. I\u2019m in an airport full of Christmas carols. Without understanding.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><b><i>Mabel Cuesta<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Matanzas, 1976. Writer and university professor. Her most recent books are<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> In Your Face, Papi. Arte, pol\u00edtica y sociedad civil en Cuba <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(Aduana Vieja, 2022) and<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> In Via in Patria <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">(Rice University, 2016). She lives in Houston, Texas.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_293726\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-293726\" style=\"width: 1072px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/7-2-1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-293726\" src=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/7-2-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1072\" height=\"601\" srcset=\"https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/7-2-1.jpg 1072w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/7-2-1-300x168.jpg 300w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/7-2-1-1024x574.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/7-2-1-768x431.jpg 768w, https:\/\/oncubanews.com\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/7-2-1-750x420.jpg 750w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1072px) 100vw, 1072px\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-293726\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Gabriela Reyna (Havana, 1991). \u201cPermanencia,\u201d 2016. From the series \u201cVestir.\u201d Video performance. Veils.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Eleven Cuban women writers describe Christmas. The visual work of eleven artists accompanies the stories. 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